You just want to be mysterious. Leave him/her something to think about. Give them something to miss. Keep their minds racing and in a sense, you end up hiding who you are to play this game of what can keep them on the edge of their seats.

I’m usually pretty good at games considering my competitive nature. Play to win… but this time count me out. I won’t need to hide because I’m going to have the time of my life. I want to take all of my make up off & let my hair down. I want to laugh and not be embarrassed of it (if you’ve heard me laugh you’d know exactly why). I want to say whatever the hell I want because, well I can. I want to be completely honest. I want to take away all of the pressures of interest and all of the pressures of… pressures. All the while not trying to ruin anything. What does that even mean?! I wanted to write something good, but it’s like, you’re so happy you don’t even know where to begin or how to even describe it. So now, here I am with this nonsense. I don’t even know if this makes any sense. And I just used the word “sense” twice. So here’s a tumbl just to tumbl. Just know that I’m smiling & I hope you are too.

That phonut was my segway. Film Vs. Digital, Attraction Vs. distratction. On the topic of modesty, and the effects of what you wear, a small Irish woman said to me, “Most guys are attracted to women who show skin.” I disagreed and she shot back, “That’s why I said MOST.” She probably didn’t have her Starburst Berries & Cream that morning. I said that it’s a matter of distraction rather than attraction. Given my recent new found liking for film I used the anology of digital and film photography.

With digital, there is instant gratification. You can see your picture in full color seconds after taking it. But sometimes, when you upload, it’s not always what you thought. Sometimes the lighting may have looked different on the lcd, or your subject didn’t come out as sharp as you thought you had focused. There’s also almost a lack of patience. You can even develop a dangerous habit of taking pictures blindly, heavy on the trigger finger, without evalutaing the entire composition. Relying on auto focuses, in camera editing, and instant review can come as a distraction. Similarly, I don’t think WE are attracted to women who dress immodestly. Rather we’re distracted because, well, we can see everything! When using film, I find a greater respect for the composition and a finer attention to detail. There’s less of a tendency to shoot blindly at everything that walks by. And the developing process, that’s the best part. There’s a mystery in waiting to find out how my photos turned out. That process is more beautiful. Modesty, in itself, is attractive. Nothing is there to distract ME from her composition, her personality, her talents. PLUS, film is way clearer than digital. For digital to be anywhere near as clear as film, your camera would have to be 32 mega pixels and those don’t exist yet!

Help us shoot with film!

A friend of mine wrote that a while ago & it’s a good reminder that there’s more that meets the eye. Patience is key. Anything you work hard for is worth it. There really are good guys in this world. & well… film is pretty cool.

Still one of my favorite reads…

Five Important Lessons:

1- First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.

During my second month of college, our professor
gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student
and had breezed through the questions until I read
the last one:

“What is the first name of the woman who cleans the
school?”

Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the
cleaning woman several times. She was tall,
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her
name?

I handed in my paper, leaving the last question
blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if
the last question would count toward our quiz grade.

“Absolutely,” said the professor. “In your careers,
you will meet many people. All are significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is
smile and say “hello.”

I’ve never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her
name was Dorothy.

2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American
woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled 1960s. The man
took her to safety, helped her get assistance and
put her into a taxicab.

She seemed t o be in a big hurry, but wrote down his
address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a
knock came on the man’s door. To his surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A
special note was attached..

It read:

“Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway
the other night. The rain drenched not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying
husband’s bedside just before he passed away… God
bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving
others.”

Sincerely,
Mrs. Nat King Cole.

3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those
who serve.

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in
front of him.

“How much is an ice cream sundae?” he asked.

“Fifty cents,” replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and
studied the coins in it.

“Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?” he
inquired.

By now more people were waiting for a table and the
waitress was growing impatient.

“Thirty-five cents,” she brusquely replied.

The little boy again counted his coins.

“I’ll have the plain ice cream,” he said.

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress
came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the
table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,
was one quarter, two dimes and five pennies.

You see, he couldn’t have the sundae, because he had
to have enough left to leave her a tip.

4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our
Path.

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the
king’s wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did
anything about getting the stone out of the way.

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the
stone to the side of the road. After much pushing
and straining, he finally succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the boulder had
been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note
from the King indicating that the gold was for the
person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve
our condition.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts…

Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who
was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only
chance of recovery appeared to be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had
miraculously survived the same disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to combat the
illness. The doctor explained the situation to her
little brother, and asked the little boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a
deep breath and saying, “Yes I’ll do it if it will
save her.” As the transfusion progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did,
seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile faded.

He looked up at the doctor and asked with a
trembling voice, “Will I start to die right away”.

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the
doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his
sister all of his blood in order to save her.

Most importantly…”Work like you
don’t need the money, sing like no one is listening, love like you’ve never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody’s watching.”

“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the
moments that take our breath away”

Hope everyone is having a blessed Easter thus far! <3

Homey don’t play dat!

My aunt e-mailed this to me today & it made my day. This is something I know I’ll want to re-read within the next few days, weeks, months & years. So I’ll post it on here…

Love & Life - Albert Einstein

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us.  We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man/woman of deeds and not for the man/woman of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man/woman you love but with the man/woman who loves you more.

The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving; it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back.  Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.  Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return.  But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow.  We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person.  This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.  The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship.  We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.  You don’t have to forget someone you love.  What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself.  Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.

Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.  Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.  If you lose love, that doesn’t mean you failed in love.

Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you.  Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you.  And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life: One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive, no past so bitter that love cannot accept, and no love so little that we cannot start all over with.

SMILE :D

Love isn’t enough. It just doesn’t cut it anymore. I’ve come to the conclusion that you may love someone, but that doesn’t move mountains and split seas like poems say…

Because people are more concerned with living for their others’ expectations that make life worth wasting. It’s all about you. You don’t get any second chances in life. You live only once. So stop worrying about if they love you back. If they do, then that’s gold. But when the better part of yourself is controlled by another human being, then you do deserve half of the shit you bury yourself under. Life’s problems are created by ourselves and ultimately, we can solve anything we are faced with. We just need to stop being so afraid of being happy. Yeah, things don’t last long, but that just only means you’ve got to make the best of what you’ve got while you have it. People make things so complicated. And for a long time, I’ve kept wasting my life being afraid of what could happen. You can’t postpone living. You just can’t. Just keep on loving instead. Even if they don’t love you back. There’s still a lot more left to believe in.

Just be ready.